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What Do You Guys Think. [04 Jul 2009|09:50am]

 i'm eating 600or less calories a day.
mainly hovering between four and five hundred.
i'm also exercising vigourously 4/5 times a week.
and i'm eating healthy foods but i'm not loosing any weight.
I'm thinking of starting the ABC diet on monday to help me out.
what do you guys think.


please do not tell me to eat 1,000calories a day because i cannot do this.
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prom [13 Apr 2009|12:17am]
[ mood | determined ]

okay my prom is in 2 months and i really need to lose weight to make sure i fit into my ness dress. At the moment i feel so fat and ugly.
cw: 130lbs
gw: 115lbs
It's going to be tough but i really need to do this, am just glad i have this site to help and support me :)

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[12 Apr 2009|05:08pm]


I dont fucking get it!

Its eatser and my mom spent all her money on me for a easter basket and all i want to do it throw it away!

Because Id rather be skinny, but then i appreciate what she did, so it makes me feel awful for thrwing it away. =(


What do you guys think????

AND another issue shes making easter dinner. Ham. I feel bad about that too. Do I sneak and put peices in my pocket and throw away later? I dont want this food I WANT TO NOT EAT like I have been I hate holidays!


What is your plan for the food that will be around you on this easter day?

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btw [13 Jul 2008|12:28pm]


ima b on like all day so comment or post or watev an ill b hyre...yea i no thats like the hole point of these communities to comment and post im jus tryin to encourage it and get some activity in this community im hopin to make this like well pretty much a second home where im comfortable with every one and everyone is comfortable with me
                                                                                                                                  <3 kay kay

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hey!! ima newbie!! [13 Jul 2008|10:43am]

[ mood | that i will b accepted here ]

hi everyone!! im new to this community and hopin its really active and supportive!!! mkay so im gessin yall mite wanna know a bit about me so here goes:
name: KayKay
sex: female...yup yup ima chik
disorder: im nt diagnosed so i gess i hafta say ed-nos bt basically i hav ana tendencies i <3 to fast and restict it gives me a feeling like no other 
bmi: 18.8- underweight
height: 5'2" {i thought i was 5'3 bt i was recently told diffrently}
cw:103 :^| {nt to good}
lw: 98/99 {tha best i felt in a long time}
hw: 117or so :'^[ im disappointed to say
gw1: 100
gw2: 99
i know my goals are rly that far away bt i dnt wanna set myself up for a huge disappointment
i am/was a member of almost perfect a few months ago bt then had to stay away from all these sites cuz of suspicious fam and frinds bt now im bak and cant wait to meet and get to know all of you!!! if any of u need anything or hav ne questions jus comment and ill do my best to help u or answr ne questions!! 
ok so how hav i been doing??...actually pretty well
july 4th~ i had a bbq hamburger 
july 5th~ i had a reg sized fried chicken breast from popeyes
july 6th~ 1 med apricot
july7th-july 12th~ nothing
july 13th~ its 11:30am and still nothing
i hav been drinking all that i want bt thats tha food ive consumed...well this is a huge post sry bout that bt now thats enogh about me...
how has evryone been doing? wat hav yall been up to? 
think thin babes 
<3 kay kay

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ahhhhhhhh [11 Jul 2008|08:47pm]

i'm utterly confused
ana has been infesting my mind and i just had a semi breakdown,
im trying to pick fights with my boyfriend, i just don't know why im acting up
i feel like nobody fucking cares, but ill make them. ill make everyone care.
i just feel like im going to lose him, this whole thing is driving me nuts. i don't know what to do right now or how to act.

going insane.

hope everyone else is doing fine.
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binge? [03 Jun 2008|11:45pm]

 i just binged on a salad a normal serving with tomatoes cheese cucumbers and mushrooms how i binged tho is i put french dressing ALOT and crutons - i never put these two in my mom does but i dont know do you think i should worry about the french dressing too much? is the salad still heathly??? ahhhh PLEASE HELP ME IM CONFUSED
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new [19 May 2008|04:31pm]

[ mood | fat ]

Name krissy
Goals: cw; 195 :( lw: 130 gw: 125
What you plan to get and accomplish with the aid and help of this community : I want to be perfect and I need inspiration from others, please dont judge me I know im the biggest 1 here :(
What you plan to do to help your fellow members inspire, post diets fasts, encourage
And what makes you want to be your breed of perfection: I want to be on the big screen one day <3

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[18 May 2008|10:51pm]

hay :D im new. im also in almost perfect. hope to tk to everyone soon !
height: 5'5
cw: 108
lw: 92
hw: 117
gw: 95
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[18 May 2008|10:32pm]

[ mood | blah ]

Name : Autumn
Goals : To lose 12 pounds by 9th July
What you plan to do to help your fellow members : encourage/ offer help :]
And what makes you want to be your breed of perfection : Lack of control, I'm going on holiday so need to be beach ' perfect '


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colon cleansers [18 May 2008|02:08pm]

has anyone ever used them? what ws the name brand? where did u get them? how much did you loose? how long was the cleanse? also how much where they ?
stay strong , Rachel
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woo-hoo [16 May 2008|10:51pm]

[ mood | ecstatic ]

so im new to this community, and am very happy to be a part....

my day went great! this was day 3 in my fast, and i consumed (roughly) about 90 calories. most of which came from the skim milk in my coffee. i have lost 9 lbs in these past three days and feel sooooo proud! i collectively have consumed around 200 calories in these past few days! not too shabby. i would be a lot happier if it was zero. so,  i was unable to jog cause of the rain today : (  but i still feel well accomplished in the excercise department. i want to lose at least another 30 lbs, which seems miles away...

the bad news is that im completely out of cucumbers and baby spinache. i have to go to the supermarket tomorrow in case i breakdown and need to eat something. i could always resort to a pickle (wow, saliva just pooled in my mouth) but i would prefer to stay away from the sodium. 

can i just thank the brilliant person who created zero calorie salad dressing, they make my cucumbers taste yummy!

about 7 yrs ago, someone said to me "wow, u must really hate food if you can go 11 days without a bite of anything! i don't know how you can go so long without thinking about it!" 
those words have always rang through my head over and over....we all know it's quite the opposite.....when you haven't eating ANYTHING for days, . ALL u think about is food........ 

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bloated [16 May 2008|10:12pm]

[ mood | crappy ]

i ate so much today its disgusting. i calculated how many calories i had today and it was 935. i feel absolutely disgusting. i could have done so good today, if it werent for that damn doctors appointment. i knew he would want to take blood, so i ate a"good and healthy" lunch. but then idky, but i had a 150 cal bag of salt n vinegar chips and i wanted to throw up ever since. im terrible at it and nothing ever comes up so ugh w.e. i hate this. im at the minimum weight for someone my height and age, but i absolutely hate myself. i bought a pair of jeans today that were a size 24 (they ran big, obviously cuz i am NOT a 24), and my friends confirmed that since i lost the 10 pounds, i look like a little boy. my boobs have gone down a full size which is a total pain, none of my jeans fit, along with my shirts. im happy about this but at the same time, it means i have to hide a really big part of my life from my best friends and my boyfriend, and my parents are heartbroken. ugh what should i do??? please help.

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Newb. [14 May 2008|02:40pm]

Goal: lose about 64 lbs
Why I'm here: Support support support
I want to look like my default.
any ideas?

=[ ouch!!
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[14 May 2008|11:07am]

Name: Desy
Goals: I want to lose 50 lbs by July. I know that sounds fast.. but I think I can do it.
What you plan to get and accomplish with the aid and help of this community: Just support to get myself under control.
What you plan to do to help your fellow members: I'll give any support to anyone who needs it. I'm here to help.
And what makes you want to be your breed of perfection: The mirror. Oh and my boyfriend who has told me I'm fat.. yeah I know he shouldn't say that as a boyfriend.. but hell it's true.

My stats:
Age: 18
CW: 140
HW: 140
GW1: 130
GW2: 120
GW3: 110
GW4: 100
GW5: 90

100 would be ok.. but I'm sure once I get there.. 90 will seem almost necessary.

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[13 May 2008|06:12pm]

Summer is coming up and I'm still fat. I have to do better. I'm always telling myself tomorrow, but tomorrow needs to be today. If the rest of my life isnt perfect, atleast my body will be.  New year (college freshman), new boyfriend (Spanish at that) requires, without a doubt, a new me (body and discpline)
So, If anyone has any thinspiration or tips, please help. 
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AIM. [04 Apr 2008|08:24pm]

i need some people who want to work tog. as motivation and such

it makes life easier to do it as more then one person

aim me - paperclipchelsea
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how.. [04 Apr 2008|07:27pm]

do you guys go about hiding food in front of your parents?
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http://nervousanat.livejournal.com [02 Apr 2008|05:01pm]
[ mood | fat ]

Rainbow Diet
Monday (white):
Breakfast: ½ apple (40.5 cals)
Lunch: ½ apple (40.5 cals)
Dinner: 1 cucumber (24 cals)
Total: 105 cals

Tuesday (yellow):
Breakfast: 1 banana (108.5 cals)
Lunch: 1 banana (108.5 cals)
Dinner: ½ cup corn (66 cals)
Total: 283 cals

Wednesday (fast):

Thursday (orange):
Breakfast: ½ orange (31 cals)
Lunch: ½ orange (31 cals)
Dinner: 1 carrot (26 cals)
Total: 88 cals

Friday (red):
Breakfast: ½ cup strawberries (21.5 cals)
Lunch: ½ cup strawberries (21.5 cals)
Dinner: ½ red pepper (16 cals)
Total: 59 cals

Saturday (purple/blue):
Breakfast: 10 blueberries (8 cals)
Lunch: 10 blueberries (8 cals)
Dinner: 10 raspberries (24 cals)
Total: 40 cals

Sunday (green):
Breakfast: ½ cup grapes (57 cals)
Lunch: ½ grapes (57 cals)
Dinner: 1 cup lettuce (7 cals)
Total: 121 cals

Week total: 696 cals
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